‘Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and it may be necessary from time to time to give a stupid or misinformed beholder a black eye’ ~ Miss Piggy
At the wise and seasoned age of 45, I understand how physical beauty fades, while deep, inner beauty continues to flourish and nourish others the entire lifetime of a woman. As a brown, fuzzy 7th grade girl, however, these wise sayings ring hollow. By the 7th grade, I was well aware that I was considered the ‘girl with the great personality’, and the ‘girl who sings’, even the ‘girl who could make everyone laugh’. You know what I’m getting at here. I was that girl.
You see, when girls reach the 7th grade, they long to be, at the very least, pretty. Or pleasant looking. Not hideous. I could maybe be described as boyishly ‘cute’. And that might be stretching it. Most of my ‘cuteness’ was derived from the combination of the whole personality package of ‘lighthearted, sweet, compassionate, fun and mostly comfortable’ girl.
Now, please allow me to take a moment to assure you this is not a case of false modesty. For those of you who know me, I do tend to edge toward the dramatic exaggeration of events, but by no means am I stretching the truth here. For those of you who knew me in the 7th grade, you know I am not stretching the truth, and therefore this paragraph was redundant.
In my heart of hearts, I always longed to have blonde hair and fair skin. I was fascinated by the prettiness of blonde little girls, wearing their blonde little clothes. Their eyes were pretty. Their smiles were pretty. Their school supplies were pretty. Even their lunch sandwiches lunch looked ‘blonde and pretty’ compared to mine.
By the time we reached 7th grade, we filed neatly into established social groups, and at the tender age of 12 and 13, the groups leading the pack were the pretty cheerleaders and cute boys they cheered for. Our school was no different, and our cheerleaders were, you guessed it, mostly blonde, fair, pretty girls with names that ended in ‘i’, like ‘Debbi’ and ‘Kelli’. Who ever heard of a cheerleader named ‘Rhoda’. In fact, who ever even heard of the name ‘Rhoda’? My established social group remained the same from 7th grade through the end of my high school years. Music Department. Go figure.
East Arvada Junior High School was located on the corner of a busy intersection in Old Arvada, and sadly, has since been torn down and replaced by a small business office park and 50s-style greasy restaurant. It was a great old brick building, built in the early 1900’s, and was originally Arvada’s High School. Many of our classes were held outside in ‘temporary’ buildings, called ‘temps’, which were strangely not at all temporary, but rather permanent.
One day, while walking outside to my temp, I caught up with a boy named Kelvin, whom I had a terrible crush on. Adored him. He pretty much held my heart in his hands, and in no way did he ever indicate a hint of attraction to me. He was wholly disinterested. We walked together for a short while, and before entering the building we paused to talk for a moment just outside the door. Exactly what it was we were talking about shall always remain a mystery, but what happened next is forever burned on my brain.
He leaned closer to me, as if to curiously study my face for a moment, and just before I could lean back…..he said….’you have a mustache.’ Just like that. He actually said ‘you have a mustache’. Unapologetically. Dismissively. Like someone would remark, ‘the sky is grey today.’
I quickly looked for the angel of death to come and sweep me away from the cruelty of my life, or for the ground to Biblically break open and swallow me, but instead, I recoiled in horror, and brought my hand to my mouth and said, ‘no I don’t.’ To which he replied, ‘yes you do’. And so on.
I somehow made it through the class, never meeting Kelvin’s eyes, and skulked my way through the rest of the school day, hiding behind my peechee folder. Hating all the Debbi’s and Kelli’s, and their light and breezy, mustache-free lives. Images of my Grandmother, and her beautifully lined face and thick mustache filled my every thought. After the insanely torturous bus ride toward Lake Arbor, via Wadsworth, I marched home, where I let the tears flow freely. Shaking my fists up in the air, both at my Latin heritage and the God who made me dark and swarthy. My mother curiously asked what happened. I told her, ‘a boy at school said I have a mustache!!’, to which she replied: ‘Of course you do.’ She turned and motioned me towards the kitchen, placing a potato peeler in my hand and went about her business.
OH THE HUMANITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Finally, my rescue was to be found in the form of my 18-year old sister, Rhonda. She was older, wiser, and although not quite as dark and swarthy as her little sister, had in her possession the answer to the cruelty of my life.
She proceeded to set me on the bathroom counter and show me how to mix the crème and powder mixture that is ‘facial hair bleach’ called Jolene. It was in a small green box, safely stored in her top secret box. My mysterious older sister not only rescued her small, defeated and very hairy little sister that day, but every day since.
The same genetic makeup that somehow graced me with a glorious, thick mane of blackness, also blessed me with a stunning Frida Kahlo unibrow and a distinctive Latina mustache. With a little management, tweezing, bleaching and waxing, I found my way.
I no longer shake my fist at the heavens, but I assure you, my bathroom vanity, on every day of the week, from that day forward, holds a box of Jolene facial hair bleach. And every time I break it open, I give a small, silent, ever so triumphant nod to the boy named Kelvin.